My self + skol break

yezzzaa....cuti!!!tula plg mengmbirakan para pelajar.ble blek kg..tp aq xleh blk.no money no talk la.. hehehh...cuti ne memang bosan dok uma ne.juz tgk cita keja x jln.hahhaha.nk uplod blog..?? mls...bek aq tgk cita.hehe..letih la tgu citer ne abis downlod.mls rasanya.tp nk gak tgk..huhuhuu. someone said that im got a problem??think like a big problem...dia ckp terlalu byk bout myself. i think suma y dia ckp btl..btl kew aq ne pure??xkasar..lembut..tp disebabkan 1 perkara 2 merubah aq mjadi kasar...boyish ckt.xsuka gedik2..memang la.aq xerti nak gedik2 2...i ve my own reason. its myb b'cz of myself..or related 2 my enviroment.dunno...sometyms im tired 2 being myself now....but still greatfull..cz there people still care bout me n now me well.xtau la np ckp gan dia 2..mcm da knl lama n rapat.sedangkan xrapat n baru kenal...heran..heran..myb insting kot.hahhaha....gila tula!first tym feel cm 2...hahahha.but tkz la kpda org 2.nasihat mu berguna kpd ku..ceh!ayat skima lak..my fam pun xpena say cm 2.my fam pun xknl aq sedlm 2..even my father!
i juz want 2 now..wat my father feel bout me??how care he is??i juz now dat him ats nama seorg bapa shj...but not 2 well.aq xtau apa y dia suka??pa y dia xsuka??who he is..??dunno...myb aq xknl cz jarang tgl gan dia..??aq trima sbb dia kuar cr rezeki...i accpted dat.but now??can i still make dat as a reason..??im trying 2 love him...gve all my love 2 him.but can he feel it??i know he cannt show it..but at least..let me feel it.all my life...i never tell tiz feeling 2 other people...even my fam..ya allah only u can show me NUr.n guide me...ya allah.
im bcome such a stupid person....why i never relise this thin' was grumbeling around my head??why??im juz only can pray...no action!